Friday, 21 July 2017

The Promise

She killed herself.
 The world was caving in on her; her weights too heavy to hold. Her mother, helpless. Her father, a drunkard, abusive. She has no friends...except for one. On the day Cassandra decided to take her life, she decided something that may change lives forever. She found her friend--her only friend-- told him what he needed to know, and made him promise her something...

"James, promise me that you will do this"
She took out a bracelet, and tied it around James’ wrist. "I will"

His promise to her? To help those who can't help themselves. To defend the innocent. To help those...who were like herOn top of all the weight of the world was the abuse she received from her father. She had only hoped that no one else has to go through what she went through. So there in her room, she took a step, a rope...

and fell.

Her body hung there til the next day. News spread throughout the network of family and friends, and it soon reached James. Everybody was in shock.

Years had passed since the funeral. James takes a look back at the promise he made to her--the bracelet--and then proceeds to weep. He had been weeping for her day after day after day. "I could've done something...if only..."

   James was no better nor different than CassandraHe was a loner too; no friends. His family--his father especially--hated him. He was despised, but he was also feared. James’ life had already been in turmoil, causing him a lot of pain and hurt. It turned him into an angry, frightening man. But he was also sensitive and the most hurt. How could he imagine a life without his best friend? He wanted to die. He, too, wanted to end himself. But no, not yet. He remembers the promise he made to her--or rather, the promise she made him make. It haunts him day and night, ever since she left. He receives visions and dreams of her, and nightmares that follow his nights. He just cannot sleep. There is no peace for him.

   Now, it wasn’t like James didn’t make any friends throughout this whole time. Throughout his life, after Cassandra’s death, he gained people he could trust: friends from church, a friend from his neighbourhood, and two of his cousins. They were the ones who helped him through with his depression and adversities, but little did they know that they (or at least some from this group of friends) will be a part of something significant. It wasn’t until a series of visions he had seen of Cassandra, who reminded him of the promise he made. It was now up to him to get started.
He formed a group chat on WhatsApp and adds these selected people in, his friends: Edward, Becky, Isaac and John.
      “Hello everyone, I’ve probably explained this to you before but allow me to do so again.
This group and the work we are about to do is a promise I made long ago to a dear friend of mine. The reason why you are here is to help me fulfill this promise, and to bring peace to our land,”  James tells them. They understood him already, given that they have heard this from him a couple of times...
“Alright”, said Edward, Isaac and Becky
“Great,” followed John. “What do we call ourselves?”

 “The Creed,” James replied.

The Creed. A pledge, a promise. One made to one dead to keep others from dying. This was their purpose.  “Everyone, let’s meet up and begin training! The sooner the better,” ordered James. 
 “Yes sir!”

It was not long until they began to go out into the night. With skills and proper tools equipped, they fought whatever crime they could find, and with that, saved lives.A promise made was a promise kept. At the start of The Creed, the promised was fulfilled, and Cassandra’s spirit didn’t need to cling to James anymore. 

 “Thank you, James. I can finally rest in peace now”

Monday, 10 July 2017

Future

   If actions speak louder than words, then would that make words utterly meaningless? Not unless they reflect the truth of the reality manifested in our actions…
I, so happen to be an eloquent speaker, but not so much an eloquent doer.
Therefore, does that make me a believable person? Trustworthy? A man of my wor—no, action?

I tend to talk a lot. Sometimes, I tend to talk a lot about myself: What’s good about me and things like that…but my behaviour, attitude, character, works, deeds…they all prove otherwise

            As much as I want to do more than I speak, I know, something is holding me back.
Fear. Everyone has a fear. A phobia; a chain that keeps us grounded. I'm not sure whether to call it motivation or demotivation but be it one or the latter, it is what drives us to pursue our goals.

 

                        Fear.


Mine? The future. I do not know what it beholds, or what have I to make of it. It is scary, frightening. The very reason why I am doing what I'm supposed to be doing is this: the future with its never-ending possibilities. Even if it's not for the sake of living, it will be the for the sake of my survival. Getting those grades in my SPM certificate will be, as my parents would say it, the stepping stone towards my future.
 
         But the way I perceive it, given my circumstances, character, ability, habits, nature; I am nothing more than mediocre: an average joe. I am so lazy. I always try, yes, I try, but only to do the bare minimum of things when I could've achieved so much more, if only I didn't chain myself up in this reluctancy.....

        They say each examination is a battle; SPM, the final war of secondary school. But I've been so used to this system that it no longer becomes a war to fight, but more like a chore to carry out. It feels meaningless! Exam after exam after exam. Tedious! Repetitive...or maybe it's just me. If only I didn't put myself into these shackles of laziness in the first place. My parents were right.

Maybe,
I'm just a child.
Still, a child, fearing and cowering from

the future.

            It feels as if all I just want to do is sleep and be forgotten...

So what do I do? If the future is something worth fighting for, let this be war! I'll train by leaps and bounds. By God's grace, I'll muster up whatever I have left in me and push forward.
Though I don't feel alive, at least doing such things will keep me alive.
After all, life revolves around work.

And if you can't do everything, well, at least

                  do something.

Make that change; be free.