Friday, 27 January 2017

Listen ©

When the teacher speaks,
you ought to listen.
Pay close attention,
focus.
Just listen.

Do not talk when she talks,
Do not speak when she speaks,
Only sit in silence,
patiently, just listen.

Listen as she
breathes a breath of life into you;
as she gives you the knowledge you need to understand
and grow.
Just listen.
Patiently.
Respectfully.

And if you are eager,
to genuinely ask a question,
humbly raise your hand
and speak what is needed.

And then listen.
Listen to how much she is pleased
when she knows a sincere heart
willing to hear and know more
of the breath that gives you life.

Just listen.
When the teacher speaks,
you definitely ought to listen.
Listen as she spends her time invested in you
her life sacrificed for yours
all her strength
all her emotion
all her breath into words into meaning.

If somebody were to come up to you,
and wants to show you something
a work or a masterpiece of their own
consider yourself fortunate to be even considered worthy
to have her open up to you.

This is all she is
Her identity,
Her life,
Her purpose,
Her soul.

And if you were to treat her
like how you treat your teacher in the classroom
well then, consider yourself unworthy
because by then, you would have lost something
which she had deemed so precious.

Respect was all she asked for in return.
Yet, you disregard her
like the air you breathe.
And make mockery of her art.

If I were to be such a person,
and have you treat me like a teacher,
if you should ask me for a poem
or a song,
I'll just shake my head
and sit in silence.

- Aaron J. Patrick

Friday, 20 January 2017

My Sister and I

         My sister and I are two very complete opposites of each other; she's a reader, whilst I, a writer.
"What's the difference?" you may ask. Well, for one thing, she loves stories. She loves reading stories. In fact, she reads more novels than I, and also has a long collection of online novels on her Wattpad library. As for I, I am not much of a reader myself. I can read, and I read when I need to. It just so happens that I'm not as much of a fanatic as my sister about story books and the sort. But one thing I have that my sister hasn't, is the uncanny ability to be better than her in terms of vocabulary and its usage, thus having a skill greater than hers, though slightly, to be able to write and create my own masterpieces; and so I write.

      My sister and I are polar opposites. While I create, she consumes; when I build, she destroys; what I construct, she devours. I am the peacemaker, while she is the aggressor. Her personality is split, doubled, two-faced, all the more proving how much we are each other's irony. If you know her like I do, she's either 100% crazy happy, or 100% crazy pissed; there is no "in between". I honour my parents in their instructions and advices; she rebels against them. Rude, inconsiderate, disrespectful all the more. Her mouth is like a fountain of poison. At most times when she speaks, she blurts out whatever comes to her mind first, as a natural response to a typical conversation (and only amongst my family) and without thinking twice, she plunges a spear to the heart, piercing it through to create a hole deep enough that it would bleed out like how our patience bleeds itself dry like we could stand anymore of her attitude.

           My sister and I are each other's inverse; and like I said, we are each other's irony. At home, she is more than bold enough to stand against us, speak her mind, and express her rage, her sarcasm, and her nonsensical sense of humour. Outside of home however, she becomes shy and timid, is respectful of others, and would think twice before saying something. I, on the other hand, am quiet at home, think twice before I speak, and sometimes keeps certain things to myself. On the outside, however, I am never afraid to express who I am, what I want to say, ideas and opinions, and could be considered as the "loudest person on earth" (as what my sister could say about me). Like, really, I don't know how to judge the volume of my voice. So you could say that I speak like I'm shouting.

         Despite the differences however, there are things that I do appreciate about her. I believe she is a gift (so happened she was born a day after my second birthday), and one of the strangest kind. She tests our patience, not so that we could stand growing in irritation and frustration but more so that we grow in more patience and love towards such a person. She has such an exuberant, crazy happy attitude sometimes, even with her nonsense she calls "humour", there are times within our family where we do laugh with each other. She dares speak out at home, so that we can try to understand her but sadly, that isn't always the case.

       And like the irony we are, though she may be a reader, and I, a writer, she dislikes poetry. (What!?)
Even though I may not be like the reader she is, I have my own interests in things. I read when I need to and when I want to and usually, it'll be something that catches my eye. I find inspiration in things, and it's not always easy. Yet, poems of which I read and write, they tell good stories too. Short, concise, yet so full of elaboration, exaggeration, emotion and meaning, with every hyperbole, simile, metaphor and maybe even a pun or two in just two to four short stanzas. I like simple things, she likes complicated ones.

     She is a novel, and I a poem.
     She is a story, and I am a song 
     She is an essay, and I a mere sentence.
     She says a word, and I disappear.

My sister and I are total opposites; she is a reader, and I, a writer.
She loves good stories, the long ones
I love good stories, the short ones.
and though I a writer, and she a reader,
by the way, if she should read this,
this is no good story.
I don't even know if the paragraphs connect
or how they transition
or whether I have judged her right.

But the thing is, this a story of my sister and I, how we relate to each other. There are those days when we relate to each other, when she seeks my advice when she needs it, when she tells me things she wants to share. We are opposites and yet one of the same kind.
Sweet sister, although bitter,
you are still fine.

Sunday, 15 January 2017

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.


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In life, we come to points where we have to make decisions. Decisions are a part of life. Whether or not we make the right decision, will make all the difference in our lives.

Sunday, 8 January 2017

A new day.

The first week of the new year has come to an end.
2017.
Here we are, starting all over again with this whole "new year, new me" bulls***.

I am not new.
I am human. As humans, we are full of strengths, weaknesses and most of all: flaws.

My entire 2016 was a blunder!
I played truant in school.
Maybe not the most serious of cases where I skip classes and skip school for something else like cybercafes and malls but even so, it was bad enough as it is.
Being a naive 15* year old in Form 4, I often tried to prove and at most, justify myself by my words, trying to show off that I can do it but at most time, being lazy and procrastinative, got me all the more in trouble. Some school assignments were not completed, I ended up owing a huge homework debt, and I sort of flunked my examinations.

*(my birthday is in December, so I had not turn 16 yet)

But here I am now,
a new year, a new beginning.
and the past week came and gave me quite a fair amount of homework, of which I could do.
I have been informed of the various projects and things we got to do this year in Form 5. Of such, there is the interclass English Drama competition, Moral project with 8 Essays to complete, with evidence of social work, Sivik project which is also social work and recorded evidence, of which is considered unimportant to most of us as it is a non-SPM subject, and a lot more, yes....

I thank God for His mercy toward me, for enabling to wake up to a new day with a fresh new hope.
This is 2017, a new year, and a willingness to start anew.
I am human.
There is nothing new about me.
But I can be renewed.
Renew my actions and my attitude.

This past week of the new year has given me a hope that I can win this battle against myself, my flesh and its carnal desires, the sinfulness of my being, and of course the bigger battles in this life be it exams, frustrations, doubts about my faith, temptations...

Nothing is impossible when I have God on my side. This I believe.
I have a hope for a new day.
Let this hope not go to waste.